In 2011 I will either do something really smart or something really stupid. Maybe both.

I'm usually not one for resolutions, and I don't know if I'd call this a resolution.  It might be more of a midlife crisis or a mental breakdown, maybe.  All I know is that I'm tired of continuing to do what I've always done, and being unhappy with what I get.

Mainly I'm tired of the roller coaster ride that is my husbands career.  He works and then he doesn't work.  When he's not working there is no guarantee when the next work is going to be.  Some years he makes a lot of money, some years, not so much.  It's really hard to manage a household when you have no idea how much money you will have or when you are going to have it.  I'm pretty sure I'm on the fast track for an ulcer or a padded room.  I'm the one that worries about how the bills are going to get paid.  He enjoys his off time playing video games.

So in 2011 I'm going to do something different.  I've talked about this before, but I've always put it off because of the amount of time and effort involved.  It's time for me to go back to school.  This freaks me out for an untold number of reasons, starting with it's been 10 years since I've set foot on a college campus and ending with the 5-6 years it will take me to finish my chosen degree (going full time).

When I think about the benefits though, like how in 5 years I will be able to consistently make as much money as the hubby has made in his best years, it seems like a no brainer.  When I think about the fact that in 5 years I will have the first 2 of my 3 children also trying to obtain a college education and having the money to cover that for them, I feel in control.

So first things first, I've ordered my transcripts, since I have no idea where the copies I have are located.  When they arrive, I will meet with a counselor at the college to plan out my next 5 years.  Since it's going to be too late for this semester, I won't be able to put this plan fully in motion until the Fall.  I don't think I want to jump back into college in the Summer.

In the meantime, I'm also considering doing something totally ridiculous, The Warrior Dash.  Not that this event is in itself ridiculous, but ME participating in it is ridiculous.  For those of you that know me in real life, you will understand what a silly endeavor this is.

For those of you that don't, let me break it down for you: 

• First, my mantra is "I don't run unless zombies are chasing me".  
• Second, I am the antithesis of athletic, like I trip over air and fall UP stairs                             (ok to be honest, I've fallen down them too, but that is much easier to do).  
• Third, I DON'T like being dirty.  

Why this event appeals to me, I don't know.  Probably something to do with the mental breakdown I'm having.  I think I'm looking to have control over something.  Either way, it should make for an interesting year.